Tuesday, August 30, 2005


.... I nearly fell asleep in JRN class. And for a class that I like, that is REALLY bad.

Must have been the lack of coffee this morning and then eating the Mamee for lunch. Bleh.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Criteria for Men, two additions


2. Must have the ability to make me laugh.

3. Must be tolerant of me yakking away about nothing on hours on end, but must also contribute to the discussion.

4. Must be presentable. (Not have teeth falling out and has decent hygiene... Though the last up for debate)

5. Must, to an extent, be a nerd/geek. Useless trivia a point. <== PREFERABLY MYTHOLOGY/COMPUTER GEEK

6. Yi Liang need not apply. Sorry, my friend, but I don't think so, as I explained in our phone convo the other day. ^_^

Some little thoughts

There are two guys in my life right now that are actively courting me. I will admit it here that I do like one guy more than I like the other, but whether that liking is going to turn into another love is another matter.

What I'm most concerned right now is the fact that I'm on the rebound. Am I over Nick? I don't know. Do I really want to embark on a relationship carrying baggage from my previous relationship? I don't think so. No repeats of the past again as well.

This song came to mind on Saturday while I was thinking about it:

What part of no don't you understand
(Understand understand),
I want a man not a boy who thinks he can,
Boy who thinks he can!

Thing is, I'm pretty sure that one of the guys who reads this blog knows what I'm talking about. And yes, I consider him a man. Now the other is another matter.

Bleh. Am upping my criteria a bit.


About my digestive system, so do not say that you have not been warned:

For those who don't know, I have a very strong and weird digestive system. So does most of my family. What would cause others to get food poisoning just causes us to spend long, productive hours in the toilet. It also lets me know when my cooking should NOT be given to others. Not to mention what kind of food combinations I should avoid.

Case in point: Chocolate milk and the college's Iced Coffee should not be drunk within the space of two hours or else it'll cause Nature to call you. And it ain't a really pleasant experience. :p

In other news, yes, Ti, she's fine. I'm getting the details from her later, so will let you know through here, okay? You just enjoy WS! Oh, and that fanfic idea sounds great! ^_^

Sunday, August 28, 2005


No wonder I was feeling so uncomfortable the past few days... Tai Ka Che was in an accident. She's alright though, but still worried... Will be seeing her tomorrow, so hopefully it'll be okay lor...

*Paces up and down*

Friday, August 26, 2005

Random Poem

Beautiful Dreamer a poem by Stephen Foster

Beautiful dreamer, wake unto me,
Starlight and dewdrops are waiting for thee;
Sounds of the rude world heard in the day,
Lull'd by the moonlight have all pass'd away!

Beautiful dreamer, queen of my song,
List while I woo thee with soft melody;
Gone are the cares of life's busy throng.

Beautiful dreamer, awake unto me!
Beautiful dreamer, awake unto me!

Beautiful dreamer, out on the sea,
Mermaids are chaunting the wild lorelie;
Over the streamlet vapors are borne,
Waiting to fade at the bright coming morn.

Beautiful dreamer, beam on my heart,
E'en as the morn on the streamlet and sea;
Then will all clouds of sorrow depart,

Beautiful dreamer, awake unto me!


Stuck in college till six as I have one passenger who will not leave till then. *Sniff*

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Homophobia, posted in my other journal

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

*Re-post this if you think homophobia is wrong.

Monday, August 22, 2005

Criteria for Men


2. Must have the ability to make me laugh.

3. Must be tolerant of me yakking away about nothing on hours on end, but must also contribute to the discussion.

4. Must be presentable. (Not have teeth falling out and has decent hygiene... Though the last up for debate)

5. Must, to an extent, be a nerd/geek. Useless trivia a point.

6. Will let you know. ^_^


Meh... So I'm going to cover the World Cyber Games (Malaysian Leg) this weekend with Dusty Hawk. So here's to hoping that I can remember what questions to ask the people there when I see them.

Oh, and the car was sent to the workshop today for a check up and servicing. I love my baby.


The aircon in college has been turned on. Apparently something was tripped earlier today. Bleh.

We now return to a not so roasted update.

Thursday, August 18, 2005


Okay, most know that I don't like yaoi pairings, but I do like well written stories.

I love Galatea: Remix. Yaoi fic, based off another fic called Galatea by the same author, insanely good though angsty. Both of them I mean.


To bumi, or not to bumi?

Bumi rights are one of the most hotly contested issues in Malaysia. Part of this stems from the fact that bumi rights supposedly enable bumis to compete economically with the rest of the country. What happens, (which has already happened actually) when people start taking these rights for granted? When they start expecting that it's their right?

Think about it.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Something I picked up from Mel


True Story. A religion teacher assigned her class an essay on what makes a good Christian. One student wrote about praying nightly, say no to abortion, banning gay marriage, and donating money. The other student wrote about talking to God and allowing people to enjoy their lives, and supporting gay marriage. The day the teacher was to hand the papers back, she called up the second student and told him she would pray for him when he went to hell. The student asked why would he be going to hell, and why he got an F on his paper. The teacher told him that Catholism is against gay marriage. The student looked at her for a minute, then said aloud, "I'm gay." The teacher kicked him out of class as if he had said fuck or worshiped Satan. A girl in the back of class who had a boyfriend and was obviously straight got up and left too.

If you would leave the classroom, repost this. It doesn't matter if you're straight, bi, or gay. It doesn't matter if you're catholic or not. Everyone is a human being and deserves happiness.

Taken from: http://livejournal.com/~dragonwhishes

Tuesday, August 16, 2005


Found the cable that I was looking for. It costs RM 59, but I think it's worth the price since I can now take pictures at High Res and upload them without needing to worry about space on my phone. Am buying it later today.


On another note, I be dolt for not doing research before posting. Thanks for the Info TI! *Headdesks*

Monday, August 15, 2005

Feeling helpless...

Bah! I hate missing posts... especially when they're about friends that I care about, even if I have not met them in RL. I can't believe that I nearly missed a friend's parting, and I felt really bad that I couldn't even offer her real hugs to comfort her.

Times like these I hate the Internet. Oh, and Ti? I'm talking about She of the Purple Hair, Commander of the Fangirl Uprising.

Okay... Thinking a LITTLE bit more clearly

*Begins ranting mode*

Registering PRE-PAID CARD USERS? Huh? Right.... Another one of those ideas that the so-called leaders of our nation has decided that we should do in order to safeguard the country. They're afraid of terrorist attacks.

According to Gerakan President Dr. Lim Keng Yaik (I think) cellphones can be used to detonate bombs remotely. Now, I have three questions for our Esteemed leaders.

1. Is that true? Can we have examples instead of rhetorics please?

2. How can the phones can be used to detonate bombs? EXACT SPECS please.

3. What does having a prepaid card/postpaid line have to do with that?

I'd appreciate it if the Leaders, people in power, idiots people up there can give me a few better answers rather than vague and generic ones.

Thank you for your time.

Interesting tidbits

1. The Four Rivers mentioned in the Genesis, as in the first book to the location of the Garden of Eden, is Pishon, Eupharates, Gihon and the Tigris. These rivers also appeared in the book of Sirach (Apocrypha books, not available in Protestant bibles unless it says so on the cover) with the Nile and the Jordan being added. Coincidence?

2. Viv honey, he was a guy that I could never remember his name till he got onto AIM. Makes me laugh (you and Ti both know my criteria for guys) but bad point... Smoker. Eep.

3. They're registering pre-paid users to prevent abuse. Whiskey Tango Foxtrot?

4. Me be lazy to write more. Meh.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

You entered: 6/12/1984

You were born on a Tuesday under the astrological sign Gemini.Your Life path number is 4.The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445863.5.The golden number for 1984 is 9.The epact number for 1984 is 27.The year 1984 was a leap year.As of 8/13/2005 4:36:10 AM CDTYou are 21 years old.You are 254 months old.You are 1,104 weeks old.You are 7,732 days old.You are 185,572 hours old.You are 11,134,356 minutes old.You are 668,061,370 seconds old.There are 303 days till your next birthdayon which your cake will have 22 candles on it.Those 22 candles produce 22 BTU's,or 5,544 calories of heat (that's only 5.5440 food Calories!) .You can boil 2.51 US ounces of water with that many candles.
Your birthstone is Alexandrite.

The Mystical properties of Alexandrite
Alexandrite can assist one in centering the self, reinforcing self-esteem, and augmenting ones ability to experience joy. Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewlers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Your birth tree is Hornbeam, the good taste

Of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, tends to egoism, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads reasonable, disciplined life, looks for kindness, an emotional partner and acknowledgment, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with her feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious. The moon's phase on the day you wereborn was waxing gibbous.

My name reveals much, apparently...

There are 19 letters in your name.Those 19 letters total to 92. There are 9 vowels and 10 consonants in your name. Curiously, 9+10 = 19.

Your number is: 11

The characteristics of #11 are: High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer.

The expression or destiny for #11:Your Expression number is 11. The number 11 is the first of the master numbers. It is associated with idealistic concepts and rather spiritual issues. Accordingly, it is a number with potentials that are somewhat more difficult to live up to. You have the capacity to be inspirational, and the ability to lead merely by your own example. An inborn inner strength and awareness can make you an excellent teacher, social worker, philosopher, or advisor. No matter what area of work you pursue, you are very aware and sensitive to the highest sense of your environment. Your intuition is very strong; in fact, many psychic people and those involved in occult studies have the number 11 expression. You possess a good mind with keen analytical ability. Because of this you can probably succeed in most lines of work, however, you will do better and be happier outside of the business world. Oddly enough, even here you generally succeed, owing to your often original and unusual approach. <== True, false, anyone?

Nonetheless, you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents. <== Definately

The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form. <== DEFINATELY AGREE!

The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer. Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need. <== True. Unfortunately.

Your Soul Urge number is: 9

A Soul Urge number of 9 means: With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.

You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.

As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 5
An Inner Dream number of 5 means: You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many nations, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished.

Test from: http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp


I've written and said a lot about choices. About what we choose to do, what we don't choose, and in how much choices play a big role in our lives. And there's been many a time when I laughed at some of the choices I've made, some that others have, and then I've cried when I realise just how far we got off track, just how wrong we went, and it hurts.

I normally resign myself to whatever road that I'm on after a few days, mainly because I'm too lazy to see if there's another alternative for me. Then (and this always happens) a few days/weeks after I'm on that road and I'm more or less satisfied, something comes up to make me change my mind. And then I start thinking...

Should I go back to it? Should I try again? Is it worth it?

Nine times out of ten... I don't. And I'm not too sure if that's a good idea.

But I've made my choice and I'll stick by it. I'm a lazy person that way.

Song: Last of Illusions, Marion Revan.

Thursday, August 11, 2005


Have I told you how much I loved you for figuring that one out so quickly?


Wednesday, August 10, 2005


Okay, so I've finally managed to get a friend to be his usual self again, though he's taking a break from Sages. That's a good thing, I suppose

The 2nd guy who asked me out, lives not too far away from my house. Apparently he lives about 20-30 minutes away from house.

Okay Ti, here are the details:

Terry-mun has been under a bad mood spell for quite some time now.So I managed to get him alone today and basically bugged him about it, and he told me he had personal problems and what not. Seems like he got over it today, and he was back to teasing for hugs.

Remember the guy we met at the Hitz Birthday Bash? He asked me out over AIM. He's the guy in para 2. Heh.

Oh, and you should have seen the reaction Palmer and Zhilbar-mun had to that. *Grin* Priceless. ^_^

Silly Pat signing off.

EDIT: The references are for TI!!

A simple solution

Most Malaysians may or may not have heard of this advertisement being played and aired over the radio and televsion recently. The ad stated that when you're surfing the Net, undesirable pop-ups may appear, and to close them, you either need to press Alt-F4 or install TMNet's pop-up blocker.

My solution is far simpler: Get rid of Exploiter and switch to Firefox. That's it.


Friday, August 05, 2005

< Ranting mode >

*Flomps into the chair, looking tired*

Alright, here's something that I need to get off my chest before I write about college. Well, it's SOMETHING to do with college.

And yes, for the first time, I'm going to talk about boy troubles.More specifically, one guy, and no, it's not about Nick, so you can stop hyperventilating, Viceice.

Someone confessed to liking me the other day. Even asked me out for a date, but I declined. Right now he's asking me for hugs, and the main reason I don't want to give them is because I don't want to give him false hopes, and I also don't want to be the cause of rumours. Yes, for once, I care about what people say about me.

So I like him too, but mainly as a friend. I don't want it to go more than that. But I still try to find more time to spend with him, more time to talk with him... I want this crush to be over.

Oh, and this applies to another guy online I know as well. The one who macks on me. I like you two. In RL though... Sorry guys, but I'm still trying to find my skin.



Went for FTV 121 just now.

WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT! Apparently they only have to do 5 journals for FTV 111 this semester. NO FAIR!!!!

FTV 241. Either it's my imagination or the guy's in love with himself or his own UIA/UPM. Bleh.

Update more details later.


I hate it when they shift assignment due dates without notice.

And I have a full day today as well. *cries*

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Whiskey Tango Foxtrot, to quote a friend

Someone please tell me why the lecturer was not informed that we had a class with her today? Apparently she doesn't know about it, or they're unsure whether the lecturer knows we have a class with her today. Stupid admins and staff!

Monday, August 01, 2005

Things to do today

1. Finish my PR report (due Friday)

2. Close up Collage aka My Story Blog which will be turned into a full RP Journal when I post the last entries up. :)

3. Sort out my schedules and remind my Year Leader to change my Journalism into News Prod instead of Radio News.

WHEE!! :)


Good news: I may drive to college after all. If Eleazar follows me and Sze Kerng does as well, I have three passengers. Heck, I don't even mind driving on Monday like that. YIPEE!!

Bad news: CLASHES. Between Screen Writing and Screen Prod. I may take an extra sem after all. Bleh.